4everwandering

stolen from savannah

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 18:57:26 GMT

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you.

stolen from markie

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 19:11:23 GMT

I honstley want to know what you all think about me.
I want the truth no more lies
If you hate me tell me
Tell me my flaws and my pros
Just tell me what you think please

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 21:42:16 GMT

What would your Anime life be like? by hearthlight
Name:
Gender:
Your looks:	Fangs and feral eyes.
Your best friend:	A sickeningly sweet schoolgirl
Your powers:	Control of shadows.
Your beloved:	An ordinary person.
Your occupation:	Demon slayer.
Your ending:	Confusing.

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i'm your hippy-dippy weatherman with your hippy-dippy weather....man

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 02:43:36 GMT

You scored as One Intelectual Individual. You're a thinker. You see things from a very different prospective than the rest of the world, and probably find release and self-expression in music, painting, scalpting, or any other form of art. People see you as a deep person, full of knowledge that they don't understand. People are attracted to that, but there's a good chance you don't care.

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One Intelectual Individual

75%

Earth-Child

75%

New Age Hippie

63%

Not a Hippie

38%

Original Hippie

25%

Pothead

What type of hippie are you?
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ZEBRAAAAAA!

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 01:37:20 GMT

1. What time did you get up this morning? went to bed
at 5 woke up at 7>
> 2. Do you prefer Diamonds or pearls? diamonds
>
> 3. What was the last film you saw at the
cinema? uh...blade 3?? its been a while>
> 4. What is your favorite TV show? daily
show, monty pythons flying circus, anything on adult
swim, annnd IRON CHEF!!>
> 5. What did you have for breakfast? ...well
for supper i had steak and burritos>
> 6. What is your middle name? Richard Nicholus
>
> 7. What is your favorite cuisine? anything
edible at all. >
> 8. What foods do you dislike? dried coconut,
anything uber spicy, snails too prob.
>
> 9. What is your favorite potato chip? ranch,
sour cream and onion>
> 10. What is your favorite CD at the moment?
god, i have to choose? ....right now im listening to
moi dix mois
>
> 11. What kind of car do you drive? Ford
something....its silver>
> 12. Favorite sandwich? well, its a wrap, and
its buffalo chicken, mayo,lettuce tomato,provalone,
black olives, mushrooms,bacon three pieces of jalepano
and rance dressing.....mm *drools*
> 13. What characteristics do you despise?
spinlessness, egotistical,selfish,
manipulative,prejudice, lack of common sense,
assholic. lots of stuff.....people suck>
> 14. Favorite item of clothing? my panda hat>
> 15. If you could go anywhere in the world on
vacation, where
> would you go? Australia again, or amsterdam. hehe>
> 16. What color is your bathroom? um,
brownish, and white....its a dorm.>
> 17. Favorite brand of clothing? goodwill,
thrift store, and hot topic.>
> 18. Where would you retire to? Australia>
> 19. Favorite time of day? Late night.
>
> 20. Where were you born? portland, me
>
> 21. Favorite sport to watch? martial arts
>
> 22. Who do you least expect to send this back
to you?
maddy--cause you've already done it.
>
> 23. Person to send this back to you first? i
unno who im sending it to yet.
>
> 24. What fabric detergent do you use?
whatever's in the yellow jug.>
> 25. Coke or Pepsi? orange soda>
> 26. Are you a morning person or night owl?
night owl and a morning person, if its from staying up
all night and not waking up.
>
> 27. What is your shoe size? uh, 12-13>
> 28. Do you have pets? ninja-cat, and
pippen-dog>
> 29. Any new and exciting news you'd like to
share with your
> family and friends? .....um. im the new pope?>
> 30. What did you want to be when you were
little? a video game tester,lol....still wouldn't mind
being that.>
> 31. Favorite Candy Bar? anything cadburry.>
> 32. What is your best childhood memory? when
i didn't have to worry about the world and people, and
could have fun wearing some tarp as a cape and
thinking i could fly>
> 33. What are the different jobs you have had
in the past? working for my dad doing various odd
jobs as a handyman. and a prep and dessert chef for a
cafe.
>
>
> 34. What is your "thought of the day"? i
really want some orange soda!

put the lime in the coconut

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 02:34:14 GMT

*Dances* *pounces* *hugs* *runs away*......*hit by golf cart*

lands on 10 uses +5 sword of smiting to lay the smackdown on the goblin king

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 03:21:07 GMT

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Sun, 06 Feb 2005 19:14:28 GMT

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4everwandering is a radioactive squirrel!!

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stole this from jane :)

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 23:57:10 GMT

put a X in the box if u would do it

[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere
[] take me for a romantic date?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] buy me a drink?
[] take me home for the night?
[] lend me your sweatshirt just because you know i love it?
[]Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[] Buy me a teddy bear?
[] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[] Sit in the doctors office with me b/c I didn't want to go alone?
[] Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] Give me a piggyback ride?
[] Come pick me up at 3 am b/c my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[] Play video games with me.

[] Go to the track with me
[] Ride in the back so I wouldn't have to.
[] Give me your last piece of food because I was hungry.

D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] think im hot?
[] think im sexy?
[] want to kiss me?
[] want to cuddle wit me?

ARE WE...
[] aquintences?
[] friends?
[] in a relationship?
[] gonna have kids?
[] get married?

AM i...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?
[] sexy?
[] everything you've ever wanted?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "us"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[] wished i were there?
[] wished there was an us?

ARE Y0U...
[] done with this survey?
[] happy you know me?
[] mad at me?
[] thinkin bout me?
[] going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

are you gonna be my girl?

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 20:31:24 GMT

can't believe im doing this, but im bored and tired of being single. so if your bored too, please fill out this lovely copied girlfriend application thingy and entertain the both of us.

1. Name:
2. Current city you reside:
3. Age:
4: Why are you applying:
5. How long have we known each other?
6. If you could give me a nickname, what would it be?
7. What was the longest relationship you ever had/ why'd it end?
8. Whats the craziest thing you've ever done:
9. Favorite Book:
10: Favorite band/ type of music:
11. Eye Color:
12: Hair Color:
13: Tattoos? (if so where?)
14. Piercings? (IF so where?)
15. Do you work, if so where?
16. Favorite artist:
17. DO you think we could work/ last?
18. Astro Sign:
19. Any pets:
20. Favorite movies:
21. Why do you like me:
22. Do you have aim or anything/whats your sn?
23. Any additional things I should know?

finally got my comp fixed!!

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 06:14:45 GMT

hey, its been over a month and a half, but i finally got resnet to get my computer to work again.

ok lets see whats happened, Im back at USM. have to take all of last semesters classes again cuz i was sick too much and failed due to attendence, so that really sucks. at least I don't really have to do much work though since i still have my old notes and papers. hehe.

I auditioned and got into chorale! so thats awesome. i finally get sing!! la la la!
besides that not much else is new.im drawing more, im joining the fencing club and i finally found a few cool people around here to hang out with. I actually have a date with one of them tomorow! ^_^ well, i don't know if its much of a date since we're just gonna hang out and watch a couple movies, either way im just happy i found someone to hang out with.

um....oh, i own a bit of cali's soul now. which was nice of her to give to me, so in return i think im gonna make her some cookies or something. i think its a fair trade. maybe if she ends up actually coming here i'll take her out for chinese food and anime lol.

but yeah, things finally seem to be going good for me now... more than they have been at least. lets see if it gets even better shall we?

see ya around space cowboy...

scurvy has nothing on me!

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 04:00:18 GMT

What kind of disease are you?

justin:

justin is caused by Satan.

justin: A case of justin will cause you to seek out beanie babies as ammunition for a 'bean-induced death ray'.
justin is curable by singing Michal Jackson songs at the top of your lungs, forever. You can never speak again, or you will die.

Volcanos- by damien rice

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 09:19:54 GMT

Don't hold yourself like that
You'll hurt your knees
I kissed your mouth and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea

Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for what I give to you
Is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new
No no just another phase of finding what I really need
Is what makes me bleed
And like a new disease Lord, she's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt me down
She's still too young
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me

...yeah

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 18:17:46 GMT

last two weeks= lots of fucked up stories, soap opera drama, people who lie, people who cheat, people who care, people who don't,people who use me, people who want to be with me but won't cuz they just don't know, drunken father,mother in another relationship, friends turned on me (big fucking surprize), running into another depression due to all these things. oh, not to mention still no job, classes are sucking big time, and im still a little sick. woot.

and thats basically summing it up. lets just say that im tired of all this shit. i don't even know why i allow myself to care so damn much. whenever i do people hurt me,stab me in the back and lie about me,or just get up and leave all together. why people are so scared of someone that just wants them to be happy i don't fucking know.
whats so wrong with being nice,caring, romantic,friendly,helpful,generous,courteous?
are these really bad things? am i doing something wrong here? should i just become an asshole like everyone else? they always seem to have a bunch of friends and girls just flock to them....bah i couldn't fucking do that if i wanted to.

but it never seems to matter who im in any relationship with, thats how it ends. whether its a gf, or just a plain friend, guy or girl, sometimes even family. it doesn't matter. hell, out of all the friends i had, only a couple haven't turned on me or left me yet. but I rarely get to talk to them anyways, so that doesn't help much.

....why does this always happen? when will someone just let themselves be happy with me? when will things ever work out? why do i care? someone please tell me, or give me some hope. cuz right now i really need it. i have a bad feeling that the relationship im in right now is going down that same path, and i really don't want it to.I really care about her, and love spending time with her and it seemed like we were starting to get closer and more happy but i guess not. but i don't think there is anything i can really do about it, just like all the others. oh well.

gah. i hate my life, at least 73% of the time.
anyone wanna help bring that down a bit? maybe 50%?

your hopeless, hapless, hippie,
justin

lost prophets- i don't know

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 05:47:40 GMT

Today they asked me, "what do you always seem to find?"
But though I could not answer I'd have lost my way
And I could tell that this ain't right
The morning sunrise seemed to ask me why I tried
To find the strength in people who had never thought about a different way of life
It just doesn't seem that easy

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is god...

But the storms I've weathered, you know they don't seem to be as bad
If you think there's hope from here and there's a life you should now have
I don't have answers and no questions spring to mind
So here I've ended up now, there's no more signs and the roads are blocked
Aw, man...
It just doesn't seem that easy

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is god...

(I see no reason to move on)

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is god...

i walk alone

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 03:33:42 GMT

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone,
I walk alone,
I walk alone,
I walk a....

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating,
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
'Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright,
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive,
And I walk alone

I walk alone,
I walk alone,
I walk alone,
I walk a....

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating,
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
'Til then I walk alone

I walk alone,and I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me,
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating,
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me,
'Til then I walk away

post election night ramblings

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 09:33:12 GMT

god, its 3AM and the damn election is still "too close to call" unless of course your watching fox, then bush won, but they said that a year ago. and fox sucks bush's dick anyways so that doesn't count. but still...this friggin thing has got me stressed out, i hate it.
I don't know what im gonna do if bush wins. this is the first time i've really been worried about who's gonna be president. I actually fear how another term for bush could affect my future, our future. the future of the fucking world to some extent.

If he becomes president again he's going to make abortion illegal, ban gay marriage,keep stem cell research illegal, take away more of our rights in the name of "freedom",screw us out of more money and jobs, more money out of education, he's going to keep us in this damn imagionary "war on terror", kill more people, spend more millions on fucking weapons to effectively kill those people. and set up a draft so we have people to use those weapons.

You know, i used to joke about moving to canada if the draft was brought up. well now im starting to seriously think about it. if these things do happen i'm getting the hell out of here. I don't care. there's no way that i'm going to put my life on the line so a bunch of old hicks can get rich, nor am i going to kill other people in cold blood to satisfy their greed., most of them are probably innocents defending themselves or just trying to stop us from invading them and raping their land of it's resources. and even if they do want to kill us out of hatred, they have a right to hate us. hell, we have enough reasons to hate ourselves, why would we expect people we're attacking to think any differently?

this could be the 70's all over again, this could be vietnam all over again, and if it is, then i'm following suit and going to canada or transfering out to australia or new zeland,london, japan, someplace away from here. or if worse comes to worse ill go to jail. I'd rather do that then shed blood(mine or someone elses) needlessly over something that could easily be delt with through diplomacy. violence should be the last resort, not peace.

*sigh* i guess i should try to get some sleep. or else im just gonna keep going on, and on and on untill we find out who won, which might not be for a long time cuz of all the late vote thingys, and absentee votes and what other things they haven't counted yet. cuz there are enough of those in ohio that even if bush wins it ( and it's 20 electoral votes) and is announced pres. it could still be possible for it to turn over in favor of kerry and give him the win. but that wouldn't be known for at least 11 days, and thats a lot of waiting. especially when so much could be at stake..... god damn it, i'm doing it again!
this is why I distanced myself from politics along time ago, i got too damn worked up and burnt myself out from debating and worrying and stress in general.

ok, i mean it this time, im gonna go to bed, before i spontaniously combust or something.
but yeah, it would be nice if anyone felt like calling me or chatting with me online or something, if not for any important discussion, then at least for the pure fact that i've gone too long without someone to ramble,complain,vent and bitch to/with.
cuz it would help keep me sane, and save me time. this took over an hour to type, it would take me maybe 5 min to say it. hmmm, i wonder if i could turn this into an essay or something. hehe. extra credit is good for me. :)

fuck, the sun's gonna come up soon. if i don't go to sleep before then its gonna keep me wide awake and im gonna feel like shit all day. so goodnight, or morning and i hope you have a sunny wonderful fun filled day blah blah blah. hehe.

*hugs and kisses*
your local hippie-commie-bastard,
justin

R.I.P

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 04:42:41 GMT

my nephew was born prematurely, almost two months early like i was. they were afraid he wasn't going to survive birth, but he did. he continued to become healthier and stronger, just like i did. and i thought that everything was ok. and that they'd let him out and i'd finally be able to see him. but he ended up having some problems last week but because his father is a dick, he didn't let anyone tell us about it.
then this saturday he went in for the operation... later that day he died. He was one month and a week old.
I never got to see his face. and now i never will.
no one should have their life taken away before they're even able to really live. before they're even able to feel happiness,love...anything. It's not fucking fair. and no one should have to EVER bury their child.just thinking about what my sister is going through makes me cry. it just isn't right.
I can only hope that he is someplace better, where he can be happy

Job Mathias Hannah, may you rest in peace

this might not be about you, for many people have hurt me. so just ignore it.

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 16:15:10 GMT

whatever....i hate my life. i'm sick of having everyone i trust turn on me, everyone i love, hurt me.
someone, please...save me. can you do that? just take the knives out of my heart and back, and heal me again. prove to me my life isn't a lie, that I didn't suffer in vain. please. anyone. help me....

I love the rain

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 07:36:28 GMT

well, im pretty much soaked from head to toe right now, but ill get to that in a little bit.

to start off my wonderful day i ended up getting almost no sleep again, had to wake up early for class too. got ready, got on the bus and then ran to class.......and found a lovely little note on the front of the door telling us we had no class. needless to say i was pretty pissed off. so i just got back on the bus and came back here.

spent most the afternoon trying to sleep, that failed. so i just drew for a while untill mary got online.
ended up meeting her and sarah for supper. I guess for some reason we had a big fancy meal thing, with the jazz band playing and everything. It was pretty good, had some prime rib and potatoes. yummy.

They had fresh baked loafs of bread there too, and a knife to slice it with. now, i figured since bread is soft, the knife would be dull. like most bread knifes are. but no, this happend to be one of those razor sharp fuckers that can cut through shoes and cans and shit. so long story short, i sliced the top of my thumb, stung like hell. bled a bit too. wrapped it up in a napkin. mary wouldn't stop laughing at me, but whats new. hehe.

so yeah, the first part of my day kinda sucked. spent the rest of it bumming around,drawing some and talking to mary until she got done her work. Thats when my luck finally turned around. :)

She was still quite energetic so she felt like going for a walk with me. We met up and it was kinda misty out, but it wasn't that bad so we went anyways. walked way out past the gas station, past another grave yard that we'll have to check out some other day. and kept walking till the sidewalk ended, then we just turned around and walked all the way back. Had our regular 7-11 stop, got our coffee fix. walked outside and it started to pour.

she was worried that her jacket was gonna get soaked, so i gave her mine to put over it so it'd stay dry.That was prob the only thing dry she had by the time we got up to the dorm. we were both soaked, water streaming down our faces, and in mary's case, makeup. looked really nice actually, i would have taken a picture of it if i had thought of it at the time.

but yeah, we were going to go in but there were a bunch of drunk people in front of the doors. and mary didn't want to go past them. which was kinda odd cuz they're always there.but anyways, since she didn't want to go in, we had to find someplace dry to wait, so we ended up going to the other side of the building where the entrance to the art place was and stood under that for about a good hour or so. just standing together and listening to the rain, and watching the drunk people being retarded.
it was very nice.
cept when one drunk guy came up to us and informed us that he had no clue who we were, then gave me a high five and left. that was kinda weird. but quite interesting none the less.

finally the rain stopped and we went back to the entrance, which was now drunk free. so mary had nothing to fear now. so we hugged and said goodnight...about 6 times, twas nice :), then she finally gave me my wet coat and went inside to get all nice and warm n' fuzzy. and now im here, also warm and fuzzy.

so all in all, even though the day started off bad and slightly painful, it ended with a very beautiful night. twas very nice. I wonder how tomorow will turn out? Guess ill go to sleep so it will come quicker.maybe have a few good dreams. :)

goodnight,
justin

heart attacks

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 17:24:59 GMT

We went to the zoo
We learned a thing or two
Animals die just like you and I
Even bears have heart attacks
And even lions have heart attacks

There's no need to cry, Mother Nature tries
And even cows have heart attacks
And even baby dinosaurs have heart attacks

They don't exercise and they eat too much fat
And even leprechauns have heart attacks
And even Nostradamus had heart attacks (I knew it)

It's just nature's way, it happens every day
And even Bob Marley cover-bands have heart attacks
Even cheerleaders, trees, and birds have heart attacks

If we knew why, we'd know the meaning of life
If they'd just exercise maybe they'd survive their heart attacks!

vacation....woot

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 06:48:20 GMT

wow, i actually managed to update twice in the same week. pretty decent for my level of procrastination....speaking of which, its been one hour since i started writing this. I need to work on not getting distracted so easy.

anyways, i think i did ok on my midterm, it was pretty easy, and had absolutely nothing to do with the 5 pages of notes i took the other night. that kinda pissed me off that i wasted all that time studying for nothing, but i guess its good i didn't have to remember all that stuff, cuz i wouldn't have been able to.

but yeah, not much else is new round here. I'm still sick and starting to lose my voice, gotta get that checked out again and hopefully they fix me this time.

when i wasn't busy being dead i spent most of my time with mary as usual. Lots of late nights and 7-11 trips. Including one very beautiful night spent out on the soccer feild watching the stars. :)

oh, and i happend to find out something quite interesting. I had the sudden urge to buy myself a sketch pad and a couple drawing pencils the other day. and last night i decided to try it out.started off with a couple doodles and just kept getting more detailed and turned out really good. I ended up drawing for three hours straight. I love it. I'm deffinately taking a drawing class next semester. woot.

so... where was i. oh, today. yeah didn't do too much. kinda didn't sleep at all. i got like 30 min total i think. i hate being sick. skipped class and just spent the rest of the day laying down and helping mary get ready to go home for vacation. which is what i'm prob gonna do too. since there's noone left to hang out with.

but I will have fun tomorow though. cuz tarra's gonna be coming down to visit me! yay! i haven't hung out with her forever. I really miss her. we're gonna have a great time, catching up on everything, prob spend the day in oldport. she wants me to give her a tour of usm too, she's thinking of coming here next year. that would be so awesome if that happend. I'll have to cross my fingers!:)

ok, its almost 3am now. so i think i should rest up so i can be alive enough to do that tomorow. don't think it'd be very polite of me to die on her like that. I also don't think mary would be very pleased with me if she came back to find me all dead n' stuff. she isn't very fond of zombies.

so goodnight and sweet dreams,
justin

my heads gonna burst

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 02:45:27 GMT

gah, its only been a little over a month and i have a midterm already!I've been studying for almost the past 4 hours straight. I feel like my brain is gonna turn into jello. this sucks. I can only hope that its not too hard and that my cramming pays off. or else im not gonna be a happy camper. on top of that i have an essay that i have to do based on info from blackboard, but blackboard won't let me on, so im pretty much screwed for that. blah.

besides that im doing pretty good. my cough is finally dying off. still there though, but at least i can breath at night now. good thing.

been spending more time meditating and resting lately. reflecting on things, focusing my energy. getting in touch with things. its been working really good. good things have been happening because of it too i think.

still spending alot of time with mary. but ill just give those stories to those who ask so i don't write a page here.:)

gotta get about $80 to get new tires so i can pass inspection. otherwise i won't be able to drive. which is not a good thing. at all.

and I'll prob be goin home for break cuz everyone else here is leaving. so i'd be all alone if i stay.

thats bout it for update today.
so to sum it up, midterms suck, bbq chicken pizza is good, I need a job, and I Love Mary!:)

peace out,
justin

interesting

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 19:08:30 GMT

i think the full moon is effecting me quite a bit. I felt very weird and hyper sensitive to alot of things yesterday. lots of stong energies were pulling me around last night. Like i got the sudden urge to just go to the mall, so i went. had no clue why i went there. untill I felt really weird, looked around and saw mary there with her friends. It was like I had somehow sensed where she was and was drawn to her. it was strange.

Then later that night I ended up being super restless. i couldn't sleep at all. i just kept tossing and turning and was in a half-dream state for almost 3hrs. and then i kept having weird dreams and waking up like every hour in a cold sweat. and that is very unlike me, even if im sick. I'm usually a really deep sleeper. it was just very weird.

Today has been ok so far, woke up, went to class,had a math test and did ok, came home and lied down some more. still feeling a little different. will prob grow stronger once the moon comes out again. It'll be at its peak tonight. this should either turn out to be very bad or very good depending on how i react. but i don't think its gonna be bad,actually im feeling rather excited and energetic just thinking about it.

and if all goes well, im gonna be having supper with mary tonight. most likely someplace with meat. cuz im getting a huge craving for it. I'm starting to think that I really am part wolf. I need to find out more about that... its interesting.

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Mon, 27 Sep 2004 05:05:07 GMT

well, for some odd reason my last entry didn't get posted, but whatever.
basically I didn't make it into chorale cuz i can't sightread good, even though i passed the rest of the audition. so im not too happy about that.
rest of the week was pretty good.

spent alot of time with mary. We were supposed to go to the common ground fair friday, but she got really stressed out due to school and family stuff, so instead we spent the night in portland and saw shawn of the dead. which was a pretty funny, if not interestingly disturbing movie. and pretty cheap too :) and then we just walked around old port for along time untill we wound up at the peir cuddling on a bench and looking at the moon. it was very nice.
when we got back it was like 1am, and I realized there was a small problem. since I had told kevin I was gonna be gone he had brought down his gf for the weekend. and i figured that if i came in at 1am they would be rather pissed off. so I ended up sleeping with her for the night instead. which was again, very nice.

the rest of the weekend will be in high speed because i don't feel like getting into it
sat-woke up, went to fair, met friends,did security for 6 hours, got wet, got cold, got ditched by friends, got sick, went to sleep,
sun-woke up, wandered round, bought gift for mary, left fair, saw mum, hugged mum, got $$, saw heather, hugged heather, came back here, ate, wasted away watching tv, looking for things to do, and coming up with nothing.
thats bout it, very exciting. i wish i had more stuff to do around here. more friends, or friends that weren't busy all the time. oh well.

ooh, I also filled out an application for best buy, got a friend that works there too. so hopefully that helps me get in.would be cool if i could actually start getting some income. then I can buy all sorts of neat stuff, like cough syrup so i can stop dying. would be nice.

so, yeah. ok week i guess. hopefully something fun happens tomorow. i like fun. it makes me warm and fuzzy. in a good way. im rambling. ill stop now.